I will be honest with you, Blade. I almost wonder if that may be the case. This place tempts you with what you want. But there is a price to pay for it. So I can't say that your guess isn't correct.
[He looks a little uncomfortable thinking about it.]
It's automatic, but I can remember it after. People have been able to pull me out of it by convincing me that there's no more threats, but it isn't easy.
And you want to be "real" to get that choice. That free will.
[Well, he doesn't mind. But given how people reacted to Giyuu...]
Well. Think about this. It's your choice to share it in the end. But if you do, and they give you flack for it...I'll step in. It's not like I have clean hands, either.
[He's glad that Hansa gets it and that he doesn't have to explain. That makes it easier. And it also makes it easier that Hansa is giving him a choice in the matter.]
...I'll think about it. Maybe I'll tell a couple people in private first.
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Date: 2025-11-16 05:15 am (UTC)[Even Blade himself. And he's feeling pretty lost right now.]
...I smelled something was off about him, but I didn't point it out to everyone.
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Date: 2025-11-16 05:18 am (UTC)[He exhales a little, but he's shaking his head.]
You couldn't have known, Blade. It's not your fault.
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Date: 2025-11-16 05:32 am (UTC)[...]
He told me that he wasn't used to being a human, but that he had a flesh body here. And that he wanted to be a doll again...
Do you think...maybe, his wish was granted? That by killing someone he got what he wanted?
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Date: 2025-11-16 05:38 am (UTC)[...]
I will be honest with you, Blade. I almost wonder if that may be the case. This place tempts you with what you want. But there is a price to pay for it. So I can't say that your guess isn't correct.
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Date: 2025-11-16 05:44 am (UTC)This isn't the place to grant my wish then. I'll have to wait longer.
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Date: 2025-11-17 09:11 pm (UTC)...Was it very important? Your wish?
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Date: 2025-11-17 11:50 pm (UTC)I want to be real.
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Date: 2025-11-18 12:00 am (UTC)[He reaches over to place a hand on Blade's head.]
I hope one day your wish will come true. But I don't want it coming true in a horrible way, either.
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Date: 2025-11-18 12:22 am (UTC)I don't either. But waiting is scary, especially here.
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Date: 2025-11-18 12:26 am (UTC)[Pat pat pat.]
We just need to be smart about things. And then what will come to you will be worth all that waiting.
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Date: 2025-11-18 03:05 am (UTC)By being smart about things, does that mean telling people about my defense system?
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Date: 2025-11-18 05:26 am (UTC)Are you aware of what you are facing in that mode, or is it like an automatic reflex?
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Date: 2025-11-18 05:33 am (UTC)[He looks a little uncomfortable thinking about it.]
It's automatic, but I can remember it after. People have been able to pull me out of it by convincing me that there's no more threats, but it isn't easy.
This is one of the reasons I want to become real.
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Date: 2025-11-18 04:34 pm (UTC)[He frowns, a little pensive.]
Maybe its best you tell others, then. So we can stop you if you don't need to take out the "threat".
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Date: 2025-11-18 04:56 pm (UTC)If I tell them about my defenses, then I'll have to tell them about how I've killed people in the past.
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Date: 2025-11-18 05:05 pm (UTC)[Well, he doesn't mind. But given how people reacted to Giyuu...]
Well. Think about this. It's your choice to share it in the end. But if you do, and they give you flack for it...I'll step in. It's not like I have clean hands, either.
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Date: 2025-11-18 05:14 pm (UTC)...I'll think about it. Maybe I'll tell a couple people in private first.
[Local E-droid needs some courage.]
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Date: 2025-11-18 05:24 pm (UTC)[Blade telling his friends...]
And if it does happen in public, holler at me. I'll be there.
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Date: 2025-11-19 04:58 pm (UTC)[He would have done so regardless, Hansa is his emotional support priest.]
I think I might tell An-An first, he's smart and calm.
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